Random thoughts ...

Turning 360 degrees from left to right. 

I realise she tend to sleep better without wearing any pants. '__'
Scars on her hands seem to be lighter but still visible.
Her "michelin tyres" are very "pinchable" so is good...
She still likes to spin herself sometimes when sleeping.

Praying ?

MIL: yx 会 拜 拜，很好笑。。。
me: woah, 真的？
MIL: blah blah blah blah.....
me: o__O haaaa

that leads me to wonder how should I answer yx questions about life such as:

1. Who created Earth and human beings?
2. Why are there animals in this world?
3. Where do we go when we die?
4. Is there really heaven and hell?
5. What is the purpose of life?
6. Why do we need to pray?

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To put things simply, I am "free"- an Agnostic or sometimes in between Agnostic and Atheist although hub is a Budhhist. I remembered when my niece asked me (think when she was 5 if I remembered correctly) who discovered Earth? But then in the first place, who discovered human beings?

Well, there are 2 school of thoughts in my opinion - the scientific way and the religious way - so I answered both very briefly: Scientific - Nicolaus Copernicus who discovered earth as one of the planetry system, and Charles Darwin's evolutionary theory; Religious - God who created Garden of Eden in Genesis. Surprisingly, she filled me with the details with such maturity that I don't think I could have mentioned when I was her age. Interestingly, she didn't mention about Buddha's world is nothing notion and I thought I better not elaborate much cos I am no expert and actually, I don't even understand why I don't understand in certain areas !!!

I have read the New Testaments of the Bible about 10 over years ago, and recently the heart sutra (般若波罗蜜多心经). As Thich Nhat Hanh, author of Living Buddha, Living Christ mentioned about the goodness of fruits where different fruits have different vitamins, but they serve the same purpose - beneficial to your health and this is akin to Buddhism and Christianity - they are different school of thoughts in some ways but they preach love, understanding and acceptance. I kindda subscribe to this logic. Then again, sometimes I  also feel "宁可信其有, 不可信其无". ha. complicated.

I reckon the best way is to expose her to both school of thoughts and let her decide what she wants to believe in. Most importantly, she must have good values (ok what are good values? How good is 'good'?- that's another story for another day...) Daddy is not as liberal but he gave me a reluctant 'ok lah' when I mentioned about freedom of choice in religion. Then the next question is, must one need religion? Is Buddhism and Christianity a religion?

It's funny that after so many years I finally realised that GP probably has some use, but I know I wouldn't be tackling questions like "Is it necessary to have religion?" or anything remotely related to it.

Christians would say, "Without Christ, I Am Nothing" (CHRIST-IAN)
Buddhism mention mindfulness. I am still thinking.

I would leave this as it is now. I pray that yx will be more enlightened than me in future.

Good reasons to have babies?

Source:  DemoncraticSingapore

Kindda amuse me when Chew did this. Hilarious note aside, I wonder what are the top reasons for women NOT having a baby in Singapore.

The obvious I think are:

1. High cost of living 
2. Obstacle to career advancement 
3. Inadequate (quality) childcare
4. No work-life balance
5. Pressurised education (afraid of commitment)
6. Wish to enjoy life more in this hectic society

but yx, I am really glad that I have you. muak !

Growing Up ?

Source: auntyacid

Hmm. Sounds true. Let's see what happen to mine in another 18 years
No matter what, mummy loves you. Daddy too. ^__^ 

So many things have happened ......

........ until I am just too tired to update my blog as things always happen at the same time.

• mum was down with acute stroke 
• gotta help out for my bro's wedding (since mum is not feeling too well)
• gotta welcome my bro's in-laws from UK

Much to our relief is:

• mum's stroke is not as bad as my dad-in-law; she was discharged after 5 days, has to go through physiotherapy and speech therapy for 3 months and thereafter her condition will be pretty much what she can attain during these 3 months. 
• My mother-in-law, who has a helper, can take over looking after yx since my dad-in-law's condition has now stabilised 
• bro's wedding in UK was over and I was only helping for the one held in Singapore.
• they are pretty nice and understanding people, so it's all good. (but my Cantonese sucks, so thanks to my bro, they know Singlish.)

My 1st polaroid photo

Huh? What are you doing?

yx was in awe when she saw her image appear in a
black and white paper almost immediately after the camera flash.
Thanks to the polaroid photographer in my bro's wedding dinner.
She is not at her best moment but still to me, a priceless expression.

Feeling nostalgic ......

Grow old with you

Makes me think of Adam Sandler's song:

I wanna make you smile whenever you're sad 

Carry you around when your arthritis is bad 

Oh all I wanna do is grow old with you 

I'll get your medicine when your tummy aches 

Build you a fire if the furnace breaks 

Oh it could be so nice, growing old with you 

I'll miss you 

Kiss you 

Give you my coat when you are cold 

Need you 

Feed you 

Even let ya hold the remote control 

So let me do the dishes in our kitchen sink 

Put you to bed when you've had too much to drink 

I could be the man who grows old with you 

I wanna grow old with you

yx, mummy & daddy wants to grow old with you too. -__-

At my cousin's wedding dinner

Touched down last night, reached home was already past midnight and I have to attend my cousin's wedding next to Marina Bay City Gallery later in the evening. Pretty tiring but guess was worth it. It was my first time attending a wedding in an air-conditioned tent and perhaps also a "good training" for us and yx before my bro's upcoming wedding. Unfortunately we didn't catch much of the fireworks but I am glad yx didn't make a fuss when she heard the loud bang.

My cutie pie sleeping soundly:

Fell asleep in the midst of singing and music

My pumped out milk in Shanghai

1 Week of milk (pumped twice daily)

Obviously, my milk volume is "dying". Still I have to pump out the milk early in the morning and at night to avoid feeling engorged during the day. Too bad, yx can't drink them, and so I collected them in bottles and pour them in the bathtub to soak my feet. *heartache*


bye bye breast milk .......